Update – April 2024
April’s ending is upon us, and even now the heavy blossoms of the cherry tree outside my patio doors are bursting forth. Their laden blooms break apart in the slightest rain and fall down to the grass beneath, littering it in the pretty way that only Nature seems able to do.
I’ve gained a new computer. It’s allowing me to compete more in the world of 3D art. Most of what I create is of an adult nature, but once upon a time I was very prolific with my art production. I will be returning to that soon. The new computer also allows me to play the only game that seems able to distract me from my more troubled times of late – Star Citizen, put out by Roberts Space Industries and Cloud Imperium Games.
SC has a long and sordid history in the gaming industry. Maybe that is a big part of its draw to me. It’s a space ship game, and very immersive. I don’t enjoy heads down games or third person games. Surprisingly I do enjoy first person shooters or FPS, so long as I’m allowed to button mash to my dark little heart’s content.
You wouldn’t believe the typos my fingers are making right now. There are construction workers outside my patio windows, using a tool that feels like but surely isn’t a jack hammer. They’ve been there for almost two months, and for that long of a period, I haven’t had access to my balcony. I haven’t been able to feed my crows and hummingbirds, who I know came to rely on my help. It’s an awful feeling, being so out of control of an important part of one’s life.
The new computer takes a lot of work, every day. I have to reinstall critical programs. I have to recreate workspaces. I have to create brand new patterns of flow to get things done. I know it is a good thing. It was an expensive thing. But it will pay off. It already does.
I posted a quick but rather bland story called Like Fish in a Barrel. This is based off an actual adventure I had in SC. I can’t believe someone set me up like that. But then again, I’m working at reminding myself trusting him wasn’t wrong – what he did with my trust was the true evil.
I will never tell someone not to trust someone else. We do have to remember how to protect ourselves though. Again, a skill I have to work on.